Happy Mother's Day

Well, it's been almost a year since I've posted. I gave up on myself, I guess. Isn't that sad? It's a bad habit I have. I start something new, get all excited, jump in with both feet, get wet, or tired, or bored.... or scared. Lose steam, doubt myself, give up... get depressed. stop.




That is not a good habit for anyone. So, I'm back. You won't see me everyday, mind you!

(It is the end of the school year and it gets really crazy with meeting, deadlines, etc.) But I'm not going to drop it like I did.

Tomorrow is Mother's Day. I don't know how I feel about it anymore. I loved Mother's Day until I lost my Mom. I have to stop looking at the sad parts of life and wallow in the happiness. I had the best Mom in the world, I should be remembering THAT on Mother's Day and not feel sorry for myself for the loss of her from my life.

That's my Mom up there with the big smile. I figured out, she was 46 years old in this picture. We were at the airport terminal at Yokota AFB in Japan, waiting for our flight to leave Japan. It was not a happy time, we were all hating the prospect of leaving. But she was smiling because she strongly believed in putting on a brave face and not showing "everyone" your pain. That's what she taught me and my sister. Actually, not the healthiest way to handle adversity, but it is what it is.

So, while I am enjoying my day tomorrow with my beautiful daughters, my handsome son-in-law, my grandchildren and their other grandparents... I will also be spending the day with my Mom. I miss you, Mommy. I'll always be your little girl, Thank you for being the best Mom in the world...and in Heaven.